I got so scared, sad.”

   Rony does not answer.

   “And I wonder why you do this? On my birthday?”

   “…”

   “Rony … is it that you have missed me so much?”

   “Mmm.”

   “I’ve missed you too, so damn much. But but …”

   He intended to mention the letter, but changes his mind.

   “Mmm …”

   “Uh, we shit in it. And now you’re back with me. Now we’ll be together Rony. Just you and me.”

   “Mmm …”

   “No letters, no harsh words – just … love.”

   “Mmm.”

   “I’ll help you up and to the toilet.”

   “Mmm.”

15 Help and Nice Words

Måns lifts Rony up by hugging him with his arms around his chest, walks backward with him to the bathroom. Rony drags his feet on the floor.

   Arriving at the toilet, he puts him down on his knees and protrudes over the toilet. He gently runs a pair of fingers down his throat.

   And Rony vomits like a calf. He gets up plenty of fluids, food, and tablets.

   Måns repeats several times by running fingers down his throat.

   And soon nothing more comes up, and Rony moans.

   “Good, my friend. Now you should take a shower, and then we should go for a walk. But calm down, I help you all the time, all the way.”

   “You’re so kind, Måns.”

   “You too.”

   “…”

   “And after the walk, you get to crawl into your comfortable bed. And I will stay with you. I can sleep on the couch. And I will be here with you for several days now. At least until you feel better.”

   “Mmm, thank you … You’re so kind.”

   “You feel so damn shit, you want to take your life … But we’ll change all that now.”

   “Mmm, thanks.”

   “From now on there will be other times. And I’m taking command. I’m of legal age, and now you understand it’s my law, Måns’s law that applies.”

   “Mmm.”

   “My word becomes your team – right? Do you understand me?”

   “Mmm.”

   “You’ve done so much for me. And I would have been dead during that … or more of those trains – if you had not been in my life.”

   “Mmm.”

   “Now I’ll make you glad, happy. And I know now that no one else can or will make you glad, happy.”

   “…”

   “Rony, it’s serious now, and do you understand what I’m saying?”

   “Mmm.”

Part 2 Life Gets New Light

BRAND NEW TIMES

16 The Two Are Now a Couple

Måns and Rony, at Rony’s

Måns understands that this man was largely extremely close to succeeding in taking his own life.

   He also understands that if it came out in the press that he has saved the life of the great and world-famous Rony Loven … would also make him a world-famous person.

   And it feels like it’s probably just Jesus who has done bigger things.

   But now the man must receive help, care, and love. Much love.

   He thinks that from this moment on the two are now a couple. Maybe not a real sexual love couple – but still a couple.

   He knows that Rony loves him more than would be considered normal. And now the old man is going to get everything that his whole brain might be fantasizing about.

   And, as I said, Måns is eighteen and of age, and he decides over his own body.

   Previously, he decided over his body that no one was allowed to touch or paw at him – which has never happened either. And now and in the future, he continues to decide over his body, who should be allowed to touch and paw at him.

   And all this is now more legal.

   And rape Rony …? No, he probably cannot – because he knows that the old man would love everything, he does with him, or as he lets Rony do.